Love, Confused

Love, confused

"I'm not, I'm not infected. I'm not infected. Please. ... Please take my baby."

In these days I set the above word as my signatures of GTalk, MSN and QQ. If you have watched the movie "I AM LEGEND", maybe you would remember it was said by a lady, who seemed obviously infected, with her baby in her arms. She tried to get out of the quarantine area. The soldiers were checking everyone who went by the gate, scanning everyone's eye ball. If they find anyone whose pupil is enlarged, they would not let him or her pass.

Obviously, the lady was infected as blood was almost spreading to her eyes. She tried to get pass with her baby. When she was pushed aside, she tried to explain and said she's not infected. She was trying to gain the chance to get out, for a better chance to live. Then she came to know that she would not be able to get out of it. So even she love her baby very much, she would implore the Lieutenant Robert Neville (Will Smith) to take her baby, because Robert has the right to pass. That's the last scene in that movie about that lady.

Well, as the story kept on going, I was not thinking about that lady or that word. But, sometime after the movie finished, I watch the trailer in the iTune. The word stunned me deeply. After that, this word kept on hovering in my brain. Very Impressive. I just couldn't get them out of my mind.

There are two main reasons:

• The mother's love

She would rather let other take her baby away, enduring the pain of losing her baby. I thought that's love. That's the love to give, to endure, to sacrifice…

• How should Robert choose?

This is one of the hardest choices. Shall he take the baby? At that moment, he was escorting his wife and daughter to be transfer to safe place. They need his help more than anyone else. Maybe he could take the baby and give it to his wife. Let his wife and daughter leave with the baby. It seems feasible in the movie. But, shall they? If they take this lady's baby, how about other ladies' babies? If they don't take any baby, will it be right? It did seem like they could take one more baby with them. This was something I could not know how to do. What should be done? I am confused.

How tough is the decision, when it comes to love? That's something I could not understand. That's something about love. Not just the love to your relatives, it's the love to the mankind in general. When it comes to the love, it's confused. For me, at least...

Love, Confused.

To be an Explorer, Nate is Heating!

To be an Explorer, Nate is Heating!

This is the word I engrave on my iPod. Explorer, is a good word. Not because it relates to Internet Explorer, let's look at the explanation in the dictionary: a person who travels to unknown places in order to find out more about them. (from Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary) Two points here: First it is going to unknown places. The one who goes back home and lies on the couch is not exploring. The other point is that the goal is to find out more, the more information or knowledge about the unknown.

When talk about moving to a new place, we won't forget this word: you cannot discover new ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore. It quite makes sense, right? You need the courage, enough courage to be an explorer. The future doesn't belong to the fainthearted; it belongs to the brave. It's US former president Reagan's word when he gave a speech about the accident of Challenger, the space shuttle.

Coming back to the web browser, the fun is that, beside Microsoft's Internet Explorer, other companies also use the positive word to name their browsers. Netscape uses Navigator as its browser's name, and Apple uses Safari. Both the words mean similar to explorer, or says the courage to go to some unknown places. That must be the spirit of the Internet Surfing…

My English name is Nate. As a graduate student, what I want is to explore the unknown knowledge… To be an explorer, Nate is Heating!

You won't see it if you don't like it

It's true. You won't see it if you don't like it. The reason is not that even you look at it you choose to ignore it, but because you will find every means to get rid of it if you dislike it indeed. The result is that thing will not appear in the world again, that's why you won't see it.

Why I talk about this? There's a story. In somehow I investigated the "Web 2.0" concept last month. When I talked with some friends, some of them worried about the advertisements. If everyone uses RSS to read the web pages, then no one will visit the website. At present, the advertisement is one of the major revenues for the website. No one visits the web means that the ad-agencies will not pay the website. Then, will Web 2.0 kill most of the websites which depend on the advertisement? It seemed that their concerns were quite reasonable. I thought about it for a while, then I said that the websites could learn from the cable TV. They could provide free services to the public, with advertising in them. The high quality services are also provided, without advertising, but charge for some fee. I didn't expect this will evoke the panic. It seems that when comes to money/fee everyone will widen his/her eyes.

Why widen the eyes? They started to worry about the public website services will be mixed with all kind of advertising that they don't want to see. But, that's quite normal, right? On today's website, could you avoid yourself seeing that annoying advertising? If not, why do you keep dreaming "Web 2.0" should sweep them out completely? Actually, I thought Web 2.0 has already done this somehow. When you use RSS to subscribe some content, you will only read the summaries or the full articles you want in your RSS reader, no advertising.

On the other hand, the worry was not unreasonable. If everyone just subscribes the RSS and read the contents just in the RSS reader, how could the website get their income from advertisement? Will they embed the advertising into the RSS contents?

Maybe yes, maybe no. In my mind, at least two strategies exist. The first strategy, as the above mentioned, include some advertising in the RSS contents, provide the RSS without any charges. If the user want to read the plain contents without advertising, they could subscribe and pay for the ad-free RSS. The second strategy, the website would not earn the money from the ordinary users who don't want to pay. They just provide the services. And when the user want more than RSS contents, they could charge the user on different levels. As the famous saying, the 80% profits come from 20% clients; 20% profits come from 80% clients. If we choose to be the 80% ordinary clients, we don't have to worry about the advertising. The website would provide us the services for free. They would just need us to compose their hierarchy of clients. They would make money from the other 20% clients, or from other ways such as the co-operating companies or sponsors.

Viewed from the user's side, you won't see it if you don't like it. If the user don't want to see the advertising, he/she will try to find the ad-free website to read. If he/she could not find this kind, he might start thinking about pay some money to avoid the advertising. Or maybe he/she should give up surfing the network for this reason. Or, maybe he/she will set up a company to provide such free services without advertising.

Put the network aside, in the daily life sometimes we just complain something, but we never do something to avoid them. Why? Maybe in our mind we don't dislike them enough. When we see some negative phenomenons in the society, do we criticize it enough? Or do we do something concrete to prevent these phenomenons? Think it over how much you like it or how much you dislike it. Then let's do something for what we believe is right...

You won't see it if you don't like it. That depends on how much you dislike it. All on you.

No Forget and No Ending

There's no Ending. Something just keeps scaring me. No, it just keeps trying to scare me. The insecurity always pushes one to do something, which doesn't go towards his or her original goal. Everyone suffers this.

Actually, ultimately, what do we fear in this world? Torture or death? Maybe in one word you can call it hell. But, many like to say that he or she is in the hell. How about this word: "If you're going through hell, keep going.(---by Winston Churchill)"? No matter you cherish life or not, no matter you curse it or not, you have to go through life, ... except suicide. We fear the unwanted situations which we have to face, so we try hard to avoid them. So, if there is nothing more that we don't want, we will have nothing to do anymore. Some kind of insecurity is scaring me. That keeps me consciously feeling that I am still alive, not death. Only death is the ultimate ending to oneself(but not to the human race [or one's spirit/faith]).

I promise that I will keep something till my death. Another word in a movie says that "If I forget, it means I was gone(died)" I know that the insecurity is real and perceptable. If it comes, I will be in a relative worse situation. On the contrary, I don't want to be pushed by this insecurity to compromise. Sometimes compromise is wise, but sometimes it means losing the principle or deviating from the origin. At this point, one should choose carefully. Something has been in my mind for such a long time, from its beginning till now. I still remember what it is, where it came from, when it started, how it appeared, why it acted like this...etc. No forget to it. I don't think any temporal or eternal insecurity could end it.

I read the words in the movie "Perfect Storm". In the movie, Bobby spoke to Christina "I love you now and I'll love you forever. There's no goodbye. Only love." The last 4 words become my favorite word that you can often see it on my site. "No goodbye. Only love." As I promise no ending for the faith, there is no goodbye to the faith. That has been with me all along, and that will be with me till the end.

It doesn't over till it's over.
----by Rocky Balboa

I promise no ending.
No goodbye. Only love.

No Forget 2007

No, I refuse to do so. I refuse to forget them, all of them, and all those are coming.

I set "No Forget" to be the watchword for year 2007.

Someone has recommended that I should forget some memories with my ex-girlfriend. No, definitely NO.

In all these years, every scene with relatives, friends, the ones I like or the ones I don't like, do I wish to forget them? No, definitely No.

All I have learned, all I have experienced, do I wish to forget them? No, definitely NO.

What will come to me in the future, no matter I like them or not, do I wish to forget them? No, definitely NO.

I could list more but I don't think I could list them all. No Forget 2007. I set this watchword as to inspire myself to remember, and let the past keep on inspire me. I know I have more difficulties to face in this year. As mentioned in the last post, maybe something fatal/deadly will beat me in the coming several months. If it happens, definitely I don't want to forget it. Frustration might become a big fortune. Even if it will not become a fortune, it's still the memory gem.

How about the gems from 2005 to 2007? More brilliant I think. I cherish them now and I do forever. Some major change did begin in about 2005. I will follow this gift's guide, to the future.